The River Flows in ME!!

Yesterday being the 19th of February, I would say is d most WET DAY i've eva experience..ok ppl dun think dirty..wat i mean is it actually involves WATER..ok neways..i woke up in d morning in tears..literally cos i dreamt abt something sad..something so random related to skool..students were bullyin a teacher n after i voiced out i cried bcos of my current situation which i felt in my dream..how weird..i know..msged kristine n said my goodbyes n a part of me was worried how was i gonna pull thru d next 3 days wen d 1st alredi started bad..

neways, after dat i woke up to jus get myself some bkfs since i cudnt sleep bak..so while eating my bakon sandwich, i turned on Star world, n i saw American Idol was on repeat n Danny bokey was up next..so jus stayed tune..n wen he sang Hero by Mariah Carey, i cried AGAIN..eventho it was my 2nd time watchin it..so yeah..more tears..s they say after cryin u will feel sleepy..true enuf i slept bak n woke up by d sound of d postmen..=\ it was a freakin saman..immediate reaction was to open n check which car..cos both honda's r under mums name..somehow i felt guilty k..cos been driving crazy plus i din wanna waste my 2 years of probation ok..it ends dis march..so i tore it open,n guess wat?? I saw MY CAR NO PLATE on d paper..lagi i freaked out..den as i checked d details, it was actually a reminder to my mum..cos she din not clear d saman she got at d market area..so dat was a relief.. PHEWWW..close call..=S so i quickly gum it bak so dat mum wudnt know i opened it..hehe..P&C..

so after dat tried sleepin bak but cudnt..so jus made another sandwich for my "lunch" dis time wit caviar..yumm..sat down n watched more tv to burn time b4 i headed to work..

left hse at 1.20 to collect Kris' tortee's pillow from her hse..YES PILLOW..one spoilt tortoise ehh..n after dat it was time for work..reached there in time..not many customers..had time to do coffee tasting n complete my coffee passport..but there was a slight problem,there was water leaking under one of d chillers below d La Marzocco espresso machine..so we rolled d chiller out to c wat was wrong..n we thought d coil was not functioning well..n den wen i was entertainin a customer, BRSSSSSSSSSHHHH!!!! sounded like something broke n d next thing u know, water was splashin n spraying under d BAR..yes..n my asst manager was tryin to cover d over pressured water pipe..d water kept gashin out..no way of stopping it..i was still stuck behind d counter..while d others went to grab mop,cloth,newspaper n everythin possible to stop d water from flowing..n mind u d store was quite pack..some customers were still sitting n minding their own business..seriously..

so yea we had to find a quick solution n dat was sweeping d water out thru d side entrance..thank god for our new partner aka my petbro from BTHO2 who was suppose to do his "first impression" b4 he starts his training end up helping us sweeping water out d store..yeah..speak of beginners luck man..he was REALLI LUCKY..it took us quite a while to get d place dry n business running..from then we cud oni make blended drinks..so customers werent realli pleased..d whole Bar n Store was in a mess..jus cudnt get things done wen d main tap is SHUT DOWN..so all helplessly waiting for d plumber to come fix..

at abt 7, Kamil(another partner) tried to fix n BSHHhhhh!!!!!!!!! SECOND EXPLODE!!... dis time all pro n moved quickly..so water out d same door..n finally d plumber arrived..it was done in less than 20 mins..=/

i came bak wit bottom soaked jeans n shoes..feet still feel cold till now..=/ i cant imagine those 2 who practically had their shower from that blast off..one things for sure, d floor got a GOOD MOP..neva seen d tiles so clean in my whole 1 month of working..

so there u have ppl, a not so good thursday..in my heart i thought y din i jus follow kristine to krabi..it wudve safe me from this BAD DAY..=(

The explanation..

I admit dat im not good wit words but i can relate myself to certain songs n so here it goes..This song is by Faith Hill..was sent to me by my dearest fren kristine..never realised the lyrics till tonite..If im not in love with YOU..

If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight
And if my heart is lying then
What should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you, baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you

And if I don't need your touch
Why do I miss you so much
Tonight
If its just infatuation then
Why is my heart aching
To hold you forever

Give a part of me I thought I'd never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I'm not in love with you

Why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me
Lovers lost in sweet desire
Why in dreams do I surrender
Lying with you baby
Someone help explain this feeling
Someone tell me

If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight
And if my heart is lying then what should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you

This song is spot on with wat ive been thru n is goin thru right now..i can oni pray dat my prayers be answered..im leaving it in ur hands my lord..

What do you say to taking chances?

hi everyone..its realli been a while since i last blog..thousand apologiz..was realli reluctant to blog at first but whole day been gettin signs n so finally kris talked me into blogging..so here's a question..have u ever felt so close to someone/a few ppl dat u feel dat u will neva b able to live without them nearby or ard?? cos i need to know if im d oni paranoid one ard or not..


so neways..keep hearin so close n yiruma's river flows in u n kiss the rain today..n mind u, its like bak to bak..so wen it happened d second time, i told kris n she said it was a sign..wat sign i aso dunno..all i know i got pretty emo both times after those 2 songs..

but anyhow..was in malacca d past 2 days (sunday n monday) wit Kristine n Christopher..kris n i have been plannin to go malacca jus for food for sometime now n we finally made it dis year..thruout d whole trip ive manage to gather some thoughts to myself while i was seating in d backseat..

like how it all begun..wat will happen wen they both leave for studies..where will i b sent for uni..will things still stay d same between d 3 of us..will i ever get another chance..will i stop being emo..will i continue falling..will i stop being angry..wat are d chances..will i ever get d chance to say wat i feel..

there was alot running thru my head thru out d trip..to an extend i end up sleepin on d wrong bed..yeah..

bak to malacca, we started our journey abt 8.30 after bkfs in mahkota cheras..n we reached malacca town by 9.40..it was a smooth journey cos there werent many cars on d road..sempat camwhore wit driver aso..lolz..
so since we cudnt check in, we headed to town first n visit d stadhuys monument..parked opposite st francis xavier's church n walked across..cudnt resist d nice setting in front d christ church n so it was time to face d camera..
and then it was d stairs climbing..all d way up st pauls hill..which we oni found out a day later dat it connects to the A'Famosa..=.="

once up st paul's hill..we took shots wit d old remains n walked ard lookin for a nice view to take shots..it was a very windy n nice place to hang out..all of us were reluctant to leave..=P
after dat it was time for a drink..so walked over to jonker street for some cendol..The Authentic Nyonya Cendol..yeah..we were so earli dat d guy asked us to wait for 10 mins..lolz..

after dat we got some junk at jusco n den headed to check in..due to d heat, we decided to go soak ourselves in d swimming pool..jumped ard n splashed ard n came bak into d room to get some rest b4 d long nite..
at abt 7 we left for dinner..which is the famous Satay Celup..went to d wan dad brought me some years ago..line wasnt dat long but had time to camwhore tepi jalan..hehe..once we got our tables we sat n ate abt 15 sticks each..yes we're not such a big fan of satay celup..still wonder how ppl can eat up to 50 sticks..jus scary..

den we headed to menara taming sari where we wasted 10 bucks on a 7 minutes ride..haha..lucky thing we manage to get a FEW nice shots..if not realli wasted..once we got down, headed bak to Jonker street for d night market..kris n i got ourselves a temporary tattoo of a butterfly which is pretty awesome..wudve asked chris to get one but i think he might jus run off n neva come bak..hahaha..n later i got myself high on Kampai which is a non-alcoholic fruit drink while waiting for my durian cendol..yeah..dat was abit insane la ah..u can check it out in kris' facebook albums once its up..

after gettin my phedora for jason mraz =)

after dat we headed bak to our apartment..d ride home somehow switched my mode..maybe it was d time or somethin..im not too sure myself but it realli got me thinkin on stuff dat i mentioned earlier..but once we got bak n started drinkin, i KO-ed d first..we oni played d devils deck n truth or dare..having oni 3 ppl, d tendency of losing is higher..lolz..so yeah..had high hopes thruout d day but in d end slept with difficulty breathin,heart pumping n on d verge of burstin out into tears on d wrong bed..sighhss...

woke up earli in d morning to switch off d light but end up waking up both Chris n kris..=/
chatted wit kris for a while n den slept off at d couch till later in d morning..woke up d earliest, got myself ready n woke up d rest later on..

at abt 11.30 we checked out n headed for chicken rice ball at jonker..everyone was still pretty quite n stoned..kris n i had difficulty finishin 5 balls wen chris did 10 without a problem..=/
after dat we decided to head to A'Famosa..which after climbing up MORE stairs dat its actually connected to the Stadhuys building..=/ they were both on St Paul's hill..so din do much up there but take a few more pics n get burnt by the sun..=p n after dat we decided to head to the A'famosa water park in alor gajah..had to use mdm GPS cos neither one of us knew how to get there..n d route the GPS took us was jus out of our knowledge la ah..hehe..so we kinda ended our Malacca trip there..spent a couple of hours there b4 headin bak to Kajang..

eventho it was oni a 2 days trip,one thing for sure, i wouldntve spent that holiday with anyone else besides Kristine n Christopher..

a best friend and a friend who i still wanna know more abt..

the sun may rise and set on opposite sides,
but i do not wish this friendship to quit from rising each day..
you both are my pillars that i will hold on
through mountains steep n high
through valleys deep n low..
though we may part but i will invest faith to keep us strong..
You who have always been there for me no matter what..

You who have captured my heart in indescribable ways..
no matter how you guys drive me up d wall
my love for you will still remain..

=)

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heard dis song on d way bak from malacca

Celine Dion
Taking Chances

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world,
but Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
(Im tired of falling)
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
(jus maybe)
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
(im willing to take dat risk jus for u)
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There’s nothing like love to pull you up,
(nothing love cant heal)
When you’re laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don’t know much about your life

And I don’t know much about your world.

(i would love to know more if onli u let me)

~SO CLOSE BUT STILL SO FAR~
floriferous out
after 2 n half hours