Wednesday, 21 January 2009

Love remains the same..

i jus heard dis song for d first time..not knowing d title or singer to it n it jus hits me straight..i wonder why..hmmmphh..for some ppl..its easy to forget someone u used to have feelings for but for me i guess they are all it abit,alot or even does remain..whether same or not dats a whole new side..but boy does dis song gets d best of me..

A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me want to run till' I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play

We should've had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I,
I wish this could last forever
I, oh I,
As if we could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same

its been tough ever since d year started...i wonder wat have i done to deserve such too nice, ppl climb over ur head, backstabs or jus dun treat u nice friendly, ppl take too generous, end up end up spending up to love, gets shut down..close to love, gets confused..seriously i dunno wat else to do..

my mood swings r gettin worse the pass few days..but somethings i jus dun get it..where have all d good ppl gone to?? seriously..


Thursday, 15 January 2009


As most of u know ive started workin at far its been great..learnin new stuff n i dun mind workin in dis line for a while..but d sad part is i caught a flu after working jus one day..satpai rite..ive been tryin to figure out wat made me fall sick..but i still dunno which can b d actual reason..weird..i know..

partly i blame for d late nites ive been having..d other reason is overworking myself n not drinking enuf water n too much coffee intake?? hmmmph..but even wen i sleep earli, i have d habit of wakin up in d mid of d nite..for god knows wat reason..eager to c msges?? i dunno..n after dat have dreams dat im not sure i wud wan at dis point of time..where confusion is piling up in my thoughts..dreams i wish would come true because everyone deserves to b happy rite? wat more cud a girl my age ask for..besides more dresses n shoes..some may say i overthink things n taking things too fast..but some things r jus beyond ur control..its not like i asked for jus happens..

i appreciate ur concern but being supportive is no harm rite?? den again ppl see from a diff perspective which is often beta than my perspective cos i tend to wan my way n my way onli..its jus sometimes u wish somethin bad happens so dat somethin good can happen in d future..karma..but i guess in my life bad things jus cant quit from happening..(yes im aware there's other ppl suffering more than me..)

i mean wat happen to being nice n ull b treated / repayed well?? i dun c how me being nice helps..all i get is a whole load of S*** from everyone ard..n they ask how come i have issues with everyone n not how come everyone has issues wit me? seriously..

now it jus seems d other way d B**** n u'll b noticed n get wat they wan n den jus dump ppl like trash..where's d logic in that..for god sake b grateful n not b a B**** ..doesnt mean u get everything u wan means u can treat ppl however d hell u wan..sorry if u cant stand wat happened..all i know u were worse n way more u got no right to b jealous..well at least u got d slight feeling of wat others felt towards u..but IM SO NOT LIKE YOU..MISS YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE..(im not referring to one but a few)..

i jus cant take it anymore d way ppl are these much for being lovebugged now i jus feel frustrated..sheeeshh..

ps: i realli hope u get over her soon so dat u can live ur life n b happy n worry-free from her ridiculously-out-of-control-life..

Saturday, 3 January 2009

GO SHAWTY ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!!! u can c from d's time for someone to turn old again..=/ to some ppl it may b a good thing but to some, not so..

this time ard its my fellow-all-time-crazy fren and partner in crime,some say gay(happy) partner only found in Sg long n no other, celebrates her 20th Birthday today..


she has been dreadin the day she'll turn 20..i dunno y..she even cried thinking dat she's gonna turn 20..its jus a NUMBER kris..u can still remain young at heart wert..aiyo..

so wat made me do a bday post..lets c..

  • Kris is my CLOSEST N BEST FRIEND (aside from church frens n "family"..those in dat category dun feel sad ok)
  • Kris is somehow somewhere somewhat my half sister..y? cos her mum has d same surname s me..=P plus we get from alot of ppl we look like sisters..
  • She drives me crazy literally..her driving can cause ppl to lose their minds..hahaha.. n at times she's jus plain crazy..end up being crazy together at times..still yet to go on our roadtrip..daym it

so crazy even had our same feet bandaged for totally diff reasons
  • She neva fails to b there for me whenever i need her or something happens or to celebrate an occasion or jus a ear to listen to all my problems..n i mean
  • She cracks me up everytime..b it taking d wrong road or asking me for directions from a place she describes no one cud undst..hahaha..
  • She takes good pictures..of its abt me..sorry CHUP CHUP!!
  • She's got my bak in wateva circumstances..from picking up my mums calls or even rushin over to bring me to d clinic..wahh sai..i still rmbr dat..haha
act she jus wans to b taller..hahah
  • She LOVES to eat..n i like food tasting..hehe
  • She is someone i can count on wen things go wrong despite d fact dat she tends to b forgetful or b in her own world..haha
  • However, all in all She is jus a loyal n gorgeous fren..=) *shivers*
there u cant deny d fact..

so ya..i think i jus listed 10 things y im doin a bday post..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!!! hope ur prince charming/edward cullen comes ur way..good luck in ur future undertakings..studies n social life..hahah..finally B HAPPY ON UR BIRTHDAY!!


********************after interview**********************

WARNING EMO ALERT!!!maybe not??

so since ive neva realli done a post for anyone..this shall b d real oni..we'll c wat i write..more crap or wat...

ive known kristine for 7 years now and started way bak in form 1..n now we're gettin so old we're forgettin who's Parameswara or wateva history n theories they thought us last time..

ppl who close to me knows i THINK ya..ive been thinkin about wat to write on this post way bak in November?? after my birthday or somethin..s i type im still tryin to recall wat r d things i wanted to put in..some r classified..hahaha..dats y have to think..

she's no wateva man..hack she even hates d word whatever..

Kristine is one hell of a chick la k..she has a darn sporting mum who lets her do wateva she likes but she however dun do wat her mum "encourages" her to do which not many mums allow..but she's still a wildchild aside from d neways thru all d years ive known her, she's d oni fren who can turn my day ard..doin d most randomness things in d minute we may b eating lunch n d next we're out to Genting?? i dunno..its jus our thing to b random other ppl wont undst..

Altho she may b "childish" (she's so gonna kill me) at times but i still salute her for being able tolerate my mood swings..Sorry man if i tortured u..=/ believe it or not she is one tough chick..besides her driving, she has d confidence to stop a crowd..hahaha..speak of metaphors man..she can hold in her emotions n not let it out in front of ppl includin me..but deep down u know its diff..she gives me d courage to keep striving for d things i want..except shoes..haha..
tryin to stand d strong wind up in genting

She is neva selfish..not oni in sharing her things or money, but even her frens n family..i have known d most interesting ppl thru her..sometimes i feel out of place wen she start introducing me to them..but hack..d more d merrier rite??

thru all these years, we have experienced so many things together n they can neva b replaced even by a million bucks..she's jus full of fun,laughter,excitement n surprises at times..frenship like this is jus priceless..n jus b having d thought dat she'll b flyin in a year is aledi haunting like losing d most valueable thing in ur life..prolly neways i shall not make it any emo-er not dat its dat emo..ok i cant think anymore..dang..

so again..

im yet to get ur bday'll come..maybe a thomas sabo charm? after my pay la k..u still got time to gimme hints of wat u wan ok..


may update abt dec 08 wen i have d time...was so bzbzbzbz..

p/s: ill b working in starbucks cheras selatan selected..will b headin for finally gonna have my own income..weeeeeeeeeeee