A Beaten Conquest..~

hey ya'll..holidays ended very quickly..maybe cos i had quite a few things to do within dat short period of time..got to spend quality time n aso free my mind after d stressful exam weeks..

Mum was in d mood to bring me shoppin n altho she said "i dun have d shoppin mood anymore" but being who she is, she bought lotsa stuff..pampering herself wit "ACCESSORIES" n d rest for d hse..its rare seeing mum in such a shoppin mood..believe me on dat..so yea, i on d other hand got a new pair of jeans n a top or a dress..depending on how i wear it..

so d followin weekend was in d farm..where i had a great experience..not oni did i get to bond n laugh more but aso manage to come clean wit others..(kinda gettin sekat-ed wit words)

neways..monday it was time to get bak to skool..was anxious to get my results..(its actually hidden somewhere in dis post)..i was quite happy dat i din fail any subs especially my Biz paper..so all week was bz gettin our marks n counting our percentage n all..got an average of 57.8% oni which is a B wit a 2.92 for GPA..was sad dat i din manage to get a 3 pointer..it was so near yet so far..oh well..but it was thanks to my Arts dat i manage to cover my lost in Biz paper..n not oni dat..to my surprise after 12 years in skool, in my final skoolin year, im finally able to get to d top of d list in class..altho percentage wise is not all dat good but hey, how often do u get no 1 right?? other than my godsister la..she's jus some genius..but neways..

NUMBER 1 baby!!~~

a date to rmbr..hahaha..
12.06.08
oh n hey..its also Naresh's Bday..all d more easy to rmbr..hehe..
(my mum jus asked me whether im studyin or playing here)
=.="
i haven told her yet..cos i somehow know she's gonna say it aint good enuf..
so y bother..jus let her take d results next week..

so jus wanted to share my happiness here since there aint anyone to share it wit..rewarded myself wit 2 McD pies after skool..haha..pathetic rite?? neways dats all from me dis time..

shall jus u wit a song entitled I Believe by Brian Mcknight which i found from d show Daddy'a Little Girls..

gonna b an emo night i guess..dunno y but cant stop thinkin of dat someone..exams jus takes ppl away..*sighss*

Some people think they've seen it.
But once they get in between it,
They find out that it's not the way
They hoped and they prayed it would be.
The stories are so dramatic;
The endings are sad and tragic.
You find yourself so far away,
A distance that love could not reach.

It's easy to find a someone,
A Mr. or Ms. for right now.
I promise you'll never leave,
Someone you can't live without.

Chorus:
Baby, I believe it's you.
I don't care what other people say or do.
It only matters what we have is true.
And I believe it's you.
Oh baby, I believe...

Some people say they have it.
Only to find what they have is habit.
Like waking from a dream,
And every cliche is true.
Is it better to love somebody & lose
Than never to love somebody who
Doesn't feel like you do.
Fairy tales don't always come true.
(d oni phrase dat caught my attention)

It's easy to find someone
A Mr. or Ms. for right now
I promise you'll never leave
Someone you can't live without.

Chorus:
Baby, I believe it's you.
I don't care what other people say or do.
It only matters what we have is true.
And I believe it's you.
Oh baby, I believe...

I didn't think I'd find love.
I wasn't sure til' right now.
I wasn't man enough til' you...
Til' you

Baby, I believe it's you.
I don't care what other people say or do.
It only matters what we have is true.
And I believe it's you.
Oh baby, I believe its you.
Baby, I believe... it's you

signing out at 8.02 pm

Thursday nite friday morning..

i couldnt sleep so end up typing stuff i came up wit..not a poem..not a story..jus me typing randomly..=p

a star shone brightly tonight,
(tho i din look at d sky)
a wish struck my thought,
wished dat star was u,
who would always b there shining upon me,
protecting me from harm,
making sure i wud have a goodnight sleep,
for i cant help but think of u,
even wen those eyelids have shut,
flashes of u smiling dat lovely night.
was all dat i cud get,
cos there was nothin more i cud do
but to bring u dat little happiness
for dats d little wat a fren could offer.

=)

For a Moment in Time~

im actually typin this from bed..was jus thinkin..do history repeat twice?? or do feelings for someone come ard after it is long gone?? is it gonna b worth tryin?? wat do u do wen u're in situations like these??

it was way bak in form 2 i think or was it 3?? he used to b d guy i chat most on ICQ..ya it was dat long ago..cud say d first guy i eva chatted la..cos my frens din have such privilege having computers..dats d advantage being d youngest..share wat ur elders have..hehe..neways..yea..tho he was closer to my sis n bro but i somehow got to know him n had dis crazy crush..first encounter ok..din know wat love was..hehe..dumb kid den..

so ya..was quite close to him..until i one day found out dat he alredi have gf..so hopes gone..n den jus tried to forget it n move on..n i think dat was d same year my ex came into d picture..total lost of contact wit DAT GUY..

so yea..years past..diff kinds of ppl in n out my life..he was still there at times giving advises or listenin to me blaberrin my stories..

n one day.. i get a msg from him jus like d normal hi's but i noticed a change in his nickname..it was like d end of d world for him or somethin..den i asked him abt it n told me to read his blog..there i found out everythin i needed to know..i tried consoling him for d next few days..got in contact wit him n made sure he was alrite..it was jus a normal reaction a fren wud do wen u hear such things..

den wen another person came into d pic..i kinda neglected him..im such a horrible fren..den he aso was bz wit his own stuff..n den today wen i finally get to chat wit him abit more than usual..flashbaks of how i used to talk to him n worry abt wat he does jus makes me wonder..do history repeat???

is it a sign n solution to my wonders of not finding d right one...many wud say i think to much..but god always have a plan for each of us..its jus how we interpret d signs he leave down for us..hmmm..

its not often someone u used to like comes bak to ur mind n SINGLE...=P most of them jus find new gf's n move on..

neways i jus needed to let it out..was rollin on d bed wondering abt it..so yea..

goodnight...
one more week of holiday..
hope to finish up s much work i can n enjoy choir retreat d comin weekend..

~floriferous out~

Happy Wesak Day & Buhhbyeee~~

Happy Wesak Day everyone!!.

lately ive been wonderin y d hack was i so crazy for Mariah Carey...last time i wud c her video clips again n again everyday on tv..cos there was dis time bak in 97/98 i think where she kept appearin on tv..but if u were to ask me a week ago whether i still like her i wud answer a little but i still love her for her older songs..always be my baby,one sweet day,hero..n many more..

songs like honey,butterfly n my all were d hits bak in d 90's..

n den came the Rainbow album which i got for one of my birthdays
in dis album things started changing..
her style of song n ermm..dressing..maybe she had "somethin" done..
but still "Can't Take That Away" manage to bring tears to my eyes..
i rmbr readin d lyrics from d album booklet everyday until there was a hole in d middle..

den in her 1# album, dat was wen "when u believe" featuring whitney houston hit d charts..i still rmbr watchin her i still believe video clip on tv..there was dis time where i rmbr ntv7 had a programme where they showed video clips n i always catch it b4 goin to skool..it was like a repeat thing everyday..so i wud wait everyday at dat same time jus to watch it..she had an army outfit n dis retro curly styled hair n red lipstick...speakin of a fanatic fan..=p

n den she disappeared n came bak with "through d rain"..but i think dat album wasnt realli a success..cant even rmbr now..=P

den after dat out came The Emancipation of Mimi..which din realli catch my attention..oni liked d song We Belong Together...emoness struck big time wit dat song..hehe..den d other songs was jus plain..*no comment*..due to too much obsenity..(its dat even a word ??) in both her songs n videos..n i tot she had lost he wonderful showmenship n jus wanted to make records for d sake of making..

N den wen E=MC2 came out..i was still unpleased wit d release of Touch My Body..everyone who used to like her wudve agreed wit me dat she din need all those super-uncovered-outfits revealing her "accessories"..she may have been wearing them n maybe she did put on weight but i mean cmon..we all know her greatness is all in her voice..she cud wear a rag n sing n stil everyone will support her..she shud jus dress her age n size...*shakes head*

but neways..jus a week ago wen her new single was released..dat was wat made me love her again...hearing the song BYE BYE jus melted my heart d way all her older songs did..jus hear n i bet u'll like it...its one of those songs dat can make u cry or jus change ur mood or jus relax ur mind or think abt dat someone u've lost in ur life b4..

dis song is dedicated to all d victims in myanmar n China.. u know i was nappin yest n i got an sms saying an earthquake hit 760 km from Tawau Sabah at 2pm..it woke me up from my dead sleep n i was tellin to myself dat im bloody lucky..ppl over there cud feel d terror n i happily sleepin..was also afraid for my sista who's in swak..tho not anywhere near but its in dat region..

so here's a dedication to all those who suffered from natural disasters n living in harms way..

This is for my peoples

Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
{all those who have family members victims of d cyclone n earthquake}
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
(will always rmbr her n hopefully she's lookin down on me)
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
(reminds me of d time wen i wud miss someone in church)
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever
{reminds me of my mum..she left for bali oni for 4 days
n i feel like she's been gone like so darn long :( }

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye


dats all from me dis time..hope u all liked d song..
n let us keep in prayer those who needs them..
(sudah lari topic)

but yeah..
Mariah Carey is still one of d living diva's..!!
hahaha..

Being Me..

3 who owned d world..actually highways ni..=P
kris on d left..i was on d hump..n mel on d lamp post..
in case u're wondering y isnt there cars..cos its a secret place no one knows =p
dis was after Benji-O's bday dinner on d 13th May..poor boy getting older..hehe..
(i bet he's gonna kill me wen he read dis)

neways im sorry i leaving dis blog un-updated..well..there's been a few changes since in last post..firstly..im another month much older =P (lame joke) but d most drastic change is (not dat drastic la actually)

JENG JENG JENG....

New Look of me in 2008

yes pls do tell me wat u think of it..
ps: i din copy kris' hairstyle ok..tho we may look slightly homogenous..
but i wanted a Victoria Beckham's hair cut..


din turn out exactly like it but its close enuf..
Jim(d hairstylist) tried his best to satisfy me..
he realli spends time to perfect d cut..
*salutes*

oh n another reason y it din turn out d way i wanted is cos, i quote jason thong
"u know u dun look like Victoria Beckham right?"
*nods in agreement reluctantly* :(
but oh well..kris said i shudnt complaint..hehe..so yea..
gave mum a shock wen fetching her..
she said she knew its a 25 bucks haircut..
cos usually my haircut cost 17..i guess u c d shine wen d pro's do it.. =P
s well s my bro n his gf..i dunno y but she was smiling.. >.< >NOT SUPPOSE TO B CUTE..god damn it..
wait wait...all i need is those highlights to get it outstanding..
it wont b cute anymore..


NEXT..

s u all can c in my msn, im counting down my days..exams is goin on.. having experienced it..u know it takes up a lot of our time..s well s tiring us out..dats y im always sleeping or lazying ard..=P

n also family decided to travel in n out of d state n country in dis one week..Bro went to Phuket, Sis left bak for sarawak, Mum leaving for Bali..yeah dat left me realli happy >.< ..missing out on all d cun places..i am still in a placed called bloody car-junk..sheeshshhh..
mum could feel my anxiety to travel once exam is over..
places like Koh Samui,Hong Kong,Paris n Rome came out in our conversation =)
*crosses fingers*
after all i did miss Bangkok,China, Singapore,New Zealand, Bali n all d other nice places my sis/mum went so ya..cant wait..

oh bak to exams..so far..MUET is done n over wit..jus waitin for results to come out..for midterm..4 papers down..another 4 more..biz 1 & 2, econs 1 & 2 *waillssss*

so neways..long weekend break..3 day oni actually..but its longer rite..=p so hopefully can get some work done for arts..n den study for d upcoming papers...(will try) i already feel like celebrating tho exams r not done..bad bad..

have been listenin to a few songs over n over on youtube..take a bow by rihanna..david cook's you'll always be my baby..hawwtsss...n d latest..by Lifehouse entitled Whatever it takes..i din realli know d lyrics until i looked it up jus b4 deciding to blog dis post..kinda suit d current situation im in..dun ask..jus hear d song..so enjoy..



A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that
I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together,
I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you
the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you
and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change I'll keep us together
whatever it takes

Not all of it reflects wat im goin thru la..but here n there..
so till d next post..adios!!!

signing out at 2.06 pm