Monday, 19 May 2008

Happy Wesak Day & Buhhbyeee~~

Happy Wesak Day everyone!!.

lately ive been wonderin y d hack was i so crazy for Mariah Carey...last time i wud c her video clips again n again everyday on tv..cos there was dis time bak in 97/98 i think where she kept appearin on tv..but if u were to ask me a week ago whether i still like her i wud answer a little but i still love her for her older songs..always be my baby,one sweet day,hero..n many more..

songs like honey,butterfly n my all were d hits bak in d 90's..

n den came the Rainbow album which i got for one of my birthdays
in dis album things started changing..
her style of song n ermm..dressing..maybe she had "somethin" done..
but still "Can't Take That Away" manage to bring tears to my eyes..
i rmbr readin d lyrics from d album booklet everyday until there was a hole in d middle..

den in her 1# album, dat was wen "when u believe" featuring whitney houston hit d charts..i still rmbr watchin her i still believe video clip on tv..there was dis time where i rmbr ntv7 had a programme where they showed video clips n i always catch it b4 goin to skool..it was like a repeat thing everyday..so i wud wait everyday at dat same time jus to watch it..she had an army outfit n dis retro curly styled hair n red lipstick...speakin of a fanatic fan..=p

n den she disappeared n came bak with "through d rain"..but i think dat album wasnt realli a success..cant even rmbr now..=P

den after dat out came The Emancipation of Mimi..which din realli catch my attention..oni liked d song We Belong Together...emoness struck big time wit dat song..hehe..den d other songs was jus plain..*no comment*..due to too much obsenity..(its dat even a word ??) in both her songs n videos..n i tot she had lost he wonderful showmenship n jus wanted to make records for d sake of making..

N den wen E=MC2 came out..i was still unpleased wit d release of Touch My Body..everyone who used to like her wudve agreed wit me dat she din need all those super-uncovered-outfits revealing her "accessories"..she may have been wearing them n maybe she did put on weight but i mean cmon..we all know her greatness is all in her voice..she cud wear a rag n sing n stil everyone will support her..she shud jus dress her age n size...*shakes head*

but neways..jus a week ago wen her new single was released..dat was wat made me love her again...hearing the song BYE BYE jus melted my heart d way all her older songs did..jus hear n i bet u'll like it...its one of those songs dat can make u cry or jus change ur mood or jus relax ur mind or think abt dat someone u've lost in ur life b4..

dis song is dedicated to all d victims in myanmar n China.. u know i was nappin yest n i got an sms saying an earthquake hit 760 km from Tawau Sabah at 2pm..it woke me up from my dead sleep n i was tellin to myself dat im bloody lucky..ppl over there cud feel d terror n i happily sleepin..was also afraid for my sista who's in swak..tho not anywhere near but its in dat region..

so here's a dedication to all those who suffered from natural disasters n living in harms way..



This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
{all those who have family members victims of d cyclone n earthquake}
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
(will always rmbr her n hopefully she's lookin down on me)
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
(reminds me of d time wen i wud miss someone in church)
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever
{reminds me of my mum..she left for bali oni for 4 days
n i feel like she's been gone like so darn long :( }

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye


dats all from me dis time..hope u all liked d song..
n let us keep in prayer those who needs them..
(sudah lari topic)

but yeah..
Mariah Carey is still one of d living diva's..!!
hahaha..

Friday, 16 May 2008

Being Me..


3 who owned d world..actually highways ni..=P
kris on d left..i was on d hump..n mel on d lamp post..
in case u're wondering y isnt there cars..cos its a secret place no one knows =p
dis was after Benji-O's bday dinner on d 13th May..poor boy getting older..hehe..
(i bet he's gonna kill me wen he read dis)


neways im sorry i leaving dis blog un-updated..well..there's been a few changes since in last post..firstly..im another month much older =P (lame joke) but d most drastic change is (not dat drastic la actually)

JENG JENG JENG....

New Look of me in 2008

yes pls do tell me wat u think of it..
ps: i din copy kris' hairstyle ok..tho we may look slightly homogenous..
but i wanted a Victoria Beckham's hair cut..


din turn out exactly like it but its close enuf..
Jim(d hairstylist) tried his best to satisfy me..
he realli spends time to perfect d cut..
*salutes*

oh n another reason y it din turn out d way i wanted is cos, i quote jason thong
"u know u dun look like Victoria Beckham right?"
*nods in agreement reluctantly* :(
but oh well..kris said i shudnt complaint..hehe..so yea..
gave mum a shock wen fetching her..
she said she knew its a 25 bucks haircut..
cos usually my haircut cost 17..i guess u c d shine wen d pro's do it.. =P
s well s my bro n his gf..i dunno y but she was smiling.. >.< >NOT SUPPOSE TO B CUTE..god damn it..
wait wait...all i need is those highlights to get it outstanding..
it wont b cute anymore..


NEXT..

s u all can c in my msn, im counting down my days..exams is goin on.. having experienced it..u know it takes up a lot of our time..s well s tiring us out..dats y im always sleeping or lazying ard..=P

n also family decided to travel in n out of d state n country in dis one week..Bro went to Phuket, Sis left bak for sarawak, Mum leaving for Bali..yeah dat left me realli happy >.< ..missing out on all d cun places..i am still in a placed called bloody car-junk..sheeshshhh..
mum could feel my anxiety to travel once exam is over..
places like Koh Samui,Hong Kong,Paris n Rome came out in our conversation =)
*crosses fingers*
after all i did miss Bangkok,China, Singapore,New Zealand, Bali n all d other nice places my sis/mum went so ya..cant wait..

oh bak to exams..so far..MUET is done n over wit..jus waitin for results to come out..for midterm..4 papers down..another 4 more..biz 1 & 2, econs 1 & 2 *waillssss*

so neways..long weekend break..3 day oni actually..but its longer rite..=p so hopefully can get some work done for arts..n den study for d upcoming papers...(will try) i already feel like celebrating tho exams r not done..bad bad..

have been listenin to a few songs over n over on youtube..take a bow by rihanna..david cook's you'll always be my baby..hawwtsss...n d latest..by Lifehouse entitled Whatever it takes..i din realli know d lyrics until i looked it up jus b4 deciding to blog dis post..kinda suit d current situation im in..dun ask..jus hear d song..so enjoy..



A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way

The worst part is that
I didn't even know

Now there's a million reasons for you to go

But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work

You gotta let me inside even though it hurts

Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"

She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

And give me a break
I'll keep us together,
I know you deserve much better


But remember the time I told you
the way that I felt

That I'd be lost without you
and never find myself

Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
whatever it takes


Not all of it reflects wat im goin thru la..but here n there..
so till d next post..adios!!!

signing out at 2.06 pm

Monday, 21 April 2008

>>....>>>....>>>>....

where's dat someone wen u reallli realli need him/her...i know u're out there..someone who will tolerate my emotions..who i want? i dunno..who i have in mind? no one..my brains r jus empty right now..i need someone who can get some sense into me...psychologist perhaps??? god...i went to penang to pray n i get screwed up like dis...its so weird...hmmmpphh...

at dis point i feel nautious (feel like vomiting) dunno whether correct spellin...
listening to ruben studdard's celebrate me home again n again...
talkin to my ex who seems to b d oni wan being concern at d moment but me being a stubborn ass is jus not taking his advise to eat somethin...cos i find it useless for it will oni come bak out in d reverse way..so i dun c a point..y is it so hard?? ive neva been so hard on myself b4..

last time alcohol used to help but i guess wit no alcohol tolerance now it might oni result to worst..

im not even 19 n im aledi fed up wit life..wats fucking wrong wit me??
i cant even bloody take care of myself..
i cant depend on myself..
i cant hold my tears in...
wat is wrong wit me..
bloody hell...jus suck me down there where i can burn in flames..
tho its not d best way to die..but its d same s cremating my body..so wat d hack..
its probably one of d stupidest post..
im tryin to let it all out..
but i guess some emotions r jus left unexplainable???
n i know its weird..but wat to do...i cant freakin explain myself...

for all there is,
im still reminiscing,
the possibilities,
that i cud b facing.
the future is not for me to perfect,
nor d past dat was impaired.
there may b a light
on dat lonely planet
where my soul landed
but till it arrives
i drive along d long bumpy roads.

i got ntg else to write..probably d most lamest poem (if u consider it as one) ive ever written..
if oni things wud go d way we wished,
life wudnt b such a struggle??
im not seekin for attention..
i jus needed to let it out somewhere somehow..
i guess a time out wud do some good..

*feeling sick to d stomach*



Monday, 14 April 2008

!!~~CELINE CAME & CONQUERED ~~!!!

i juz got back from a concert dat can give me goosebumps until now as i type here (1am plus)... if u all din know..CELINE DION performed at Stadium Merdeka last nite.. 13th April 2008..i tot Live n Loud was good..this was god knows how many times betta..PERFORMANCE wise...HANDS DOWN..tho we were seated further from the stage..the quality of wat goes into my ears dat counts..hahahaha... however, i realli wished dat KRISTINE WAS THERE :( first cos i was mmg plannin to go wit her..second den she cud hear for herself, CELINE DION..third, so i din have to shout into her ears on d fon..n so..i shall dedicate dis blog to my closie KRISTINE THONG MEI CHUIN...hahaha..n also to those who wanted to go but cudnt..eg: Freddie, Zat, Roshan n MY MUM...

so yeah..at 4.50 darren came n pick me up..went over to kris to get extra cam memory card (which i din end up using)...den waited for his parents..got in d car..fetched another 2 of their frens..n off we were for Stadium Merdeka..was an hour behind schedule..but being smart kl ppl..we knew where to find parking..parked at Kg. Attap n took a slow walk across...n den made our way to GATE 4 as it is stated on our ticket..

our tickets got exchanged at d gate..n i ended up wit one of mel's tickets =p
n dis is taken by her..

so neways s it is stated, i bumped into mel while walking pass d darn long line..and smart darren found a shorter line near d gates..so walked up d hill again..mind u it was a worth while exercise ok..we were in by 7.10?? or earlier..lolz..so was finding some good seats..n we got some realli nice wans..could c d stage clearly n were in a proper position facing d big ass speakers..while waiting..took pics..realised it was a beautiful sunset..

^at 7.00

^at 7.30 (i think)

^d stage n huge ass screens with CELINE on it!!

^ stage,screens,sunset(3s) n fake moon =P

and as usual..we cant escape whoring sessions k..wen u have a camera..it is d right thing to do..

d person i met on my right(mel) n d person i wentwit on my left(darren)...
how lucky am i =P


d ladies..aunti irene,mely moo,me

at first d crowd were so quiet n not realli hyped up..even i was like.."we gotto something to get us hyped up"..n d next thing i knew..mexican wave started from d other side..n it went on n on n on n on..n it was daym funny wen d crowd in d mid field continued after oneside ended...hahahaha..cudnt record it...was stilll figuring out wat mode n all to use..n din wanna waste batt..so neways..we were doin dat till like 8+..n wen it was abt 9..d arrival of d Seri Paduka Baginda Yang Di-pertuan Agong..n all d other bigshots dat came..cant hear n rmbr who n all were there but yeah there were d big shots there..heard ariana teoh was there too..Siti was on screen for a while..=p.. but i was gettin all excited for celine's openin..

n suddenly...POOfff...Lights off...
*SHOUTS!~~****



SHe was singing backstage n tunes of "I drove All Nite" cud b heard but it was a bit long..din know wen she was gonna appear..n den suddenly u c

CELINE!!!






n den from then it was all up to her to sing n make me HYPED-HAPPY-n everything else beyond..words cud not explain how good she was n how happy i was to b able to finally see her..daymm...she sang so many songs..some from her previous albums like power of love,All by myself,It's all coming bak to me now, because u loved me, river deep mountain high, im ur angel, if that's wat it takes (in french).. afew songs i din know d title..realli old..ermm..wat else..den new ones from d current album taking chances,alone,eyez on me,my love,shadow of love n a few more..realli cant rmbr..come to think abt it, she sang ALOT of songs ehh...


following pics r not uploaded according to d order of d songs...hehe...cant rmbr wat pic for wat..
was realli bz recording n taking pics n singing...



the medley of all timess...
its all coming bak to me now & because u loved me


the power of love filled d air.. =P

d beautiful colored lighting stage...
n she knelt while singing "my love"..it was so meaningful..


celine wit her back up singers rocking d stage

she rocking during river deep mountain high..

celine leaning on d gilagood-guitarist..
its actually 2 pictures taken in one shot..
how cool ehh... *winks*
no photoshop involved..jus did some cropping..dats all..

celine reaching those high notes...
those still gimme goosebumps..

dancers during intermission..they rocka!!


eventho she said goodnight after river deep mountain high, she knew dat we wudnt leave without dat ONE SONG...MY HEART WILL GO ON..n guess wat..i had a few misscalls wen she went off stage n i tot she went to change..but it was oni at d last n very last time, she came out on stage wit dis gorgeous yellow-ish peach, spagetthi strap long flow-wy dress n humming to d tunes of My heart Will go on..wen i heard dat..dat was d moment my camera batt had to run out on me...SIGH...but manage to catch dis last 2 shots of her...song was recorded by darren instead..n his fon batt died after dat hehe..


u wudnt imagine how happy i was after gettin dis 2 shots..
plus her voice..i was literally in tears..
=)

den it was time for us to have our own limelight wit d stage...hahaha..
not on stage but close enuf =P

yin & yang or yang & yin ^^

yin yang n yong???

yin yang in darkness..=p

after that made our way bak to d carpark where we had to go thru bigshots cars..sighh..rich asses have to hog d oni road to d stadium..crossed d massive road..n off for supper near PGRM wit uncles n aunties n darren...n came home to 4 celine posters sis got...WEEE!!~~~ not signed but at least somethin rite..since i din buy anythin bak.=p gave one to aunti elaine..n d rest is for me to keep s remembrance...


signed out at 3.50am
i gtg skool in 2 n half hours time...daym it..im screwedd!! will edit tom or somethin..will let ya know..take care..enjoy d clips..

resigned in at 1.45pm
signed out at 5pm
sorry for d delay..uploadin punya pasal..hahaha..

ps: darren n mel..do send over d pics ya =P
pss: sorry for d bad video recording..but thank god d sound was clear rite...
besides me talkin n singing or shud i say shouting in d background.. =p

floriferous...OUT!!

im gonna miss my celine oh celine dion...
=(

Sunday, 30 March 2008

Got TAGGED!! =.=

hi all..i got tagged by 2 of my wonderful frens..n now i cant tag anyone cos they tagged others d..sighh..neways..here's wat they wanted me to answer..lols...honesty is d best policy ehh...

List out Top 5 present you wish for : (mind u it doesnt've have to b my bday..ANYTIME baby..hehe)

  1. A Fair Lady..(not a lady but the Nissan 350z) *HAWtsss*
  2. A diamond necklace/ring *waits for it anxiously =P *
  3. A new Handphone (N96? heard it was slim n cun)
  4. An Oakley shades
  5. A ticket to Celine Dion's Concert!!!!! cheapest wan aso i dun care...=P
Actually Anything dat is nice or memorable and suitable =) (im very kind wan =P )

The person who tagged me is : Kristine Thong Mei Chuin aka Lesbo partner accordin to her blog

Your 5 impressions of him/her:

  • Mad-Crazy-Hyper-Nocturnal-Smart ( there 5) hahaha
  • she's fun to hang ard wit.. no doubt..HANDS DOWN!!!
  • can realli make me laugh non stop..viral infections..hehe..
  • she's financially supportive =p
  • not forgettin HOTS!!!

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS GIVE/DONE FOR YOU
~* did a handfon accessory in form 5. with both our names on it..how sweet rite.. *winks* oh n she even paid for my xmas dress first ( which i wanted to much) last year..obviously i paid her bak la..hehe..no interest charged... =P

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU
~* there's so many things she said... some realli meant alot..there's jus to many to name i suppose...

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL
~* oh wow...d world will fall apart..hehe..well lesbians r quite famous dis days ehh..

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE
~* she killed my other frens or backstab me to other frens..

got dced while doin dis...

decided not to do d rest of d tag cos d ppl i wan dont blog n no way i will know wat they think
abt me if they dun read neither blog abt it...besides dat mood was lost after a call last nite...so shall jus end my post n continue my sunday..shall post soon abt d current situation...c ya'll..happy sunday