Dead & Gone

s bad s d title sounds..but im jus here to say that ive moved on from d emo state i was in d past few weeks..n ive got myself straight n moving again (tho im lying on my bed most of d time =p)..jus being me seems to b going well..less thinking = less emo..i jus hope i can stay in this happy/positive state for awhile..life's too short to b emo n sad rite?

like i told myself i'd b fine after holy week (holy thursday,good friday,easter)..sometimes it jus takes time alone to think n restructure the head abit..=p im glad dat i din breakdown during any of the masses..cos i kept thinkin dat i'd breakdown,but i guess enuf is enuf? i quote kristine "reached the quota to cry"..lolz..

also gotto thank my advisors..you know who u are..for kicking some sense into me n get me back on my feet..=)

now all i needa to do is have fun n blog up funny things in d future..no more emoness..=D *cross fingers*

:: just FLORA ::
life goes on

Just like a shadow

the day passes so slowly..
head keeps juggling away
everything is goin downhill
just dun have the strength to move on
jus like a dead man walking
or a shadow of someone you do not know
the feeling of jus puttin everythin to a hold
even movies dun make d tears fall anymore
numbness takes over

Cant move on from this state
Heart does no longer feel the pain
Runs to my dreams to have a glimpse of you
In love?
Sacrifice is all i can give
Thank God for you in my life
Offer all i have to give
Pain is jus another feeling
Hate is not an option
Everlasting friendship is all i can have n need
Remember the memories together

:: floriferous ::
ill be that angel
to protect you

Crazy Monday

waking up with a mind full of words to write in a letter is simply dangerous..

driving to a destination not knowing wat to do may cause accident..

over thinking things aso can cause dain-bramage and unnecessary heartache..

misunderstanding/misinterpretation leads to massive breakdown.

u add all of that up,

you get ME on Monday the 6th of April 2009

You're my Everything

Yesterday being Palm Sunday n World Youth Day, the mass was animated by the youths..So during homily, they came up with a skit..the skit was done to Lifehouse's Everything..they did exactly like the Mission Baltimore group..it only too 5 minutes n it touched many ppl including mine dat is..below is d link for the skit done by Mission Baltimore..will let u know once d Kajang version is up..=D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfrbIleVf58

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the truth is, d song not only touched me spiritually but emotionally s well..so obvious rite? if not i wudnt b bloggin abt it..=/ so ya..we all need God in our lives but there's a saying in the Bible that Love is d best among all..n theres a special commandment where it says love one another as i have loved you..means its not wrong to think of God n of someone you love at d same time..neways straight to d point..wen d song reached its climax/gempak/loudest part, tears came to my eyes..not only have i been a BAD catholic lately but aso i knew something/someone was missing..like i said, im bad with words..=/ so here r d lyrics to interprete how i feel..

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
somewhere i wish i cud get to b4 its too late

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
without you, i wouldnt've been able to do wat i did

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
but somehow i still end up falling
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
only you can make my heart turn around like a rollercoaster ride

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
i need someone to direct me where to go n wat to do
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

*this part was where my heart jus stopped*
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
for once i want something different than wat i had in d past
and that makes you everything..everything dat ive dreamt of..

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

:: floriferous ::
In spite of the aches and bruises
It hurts even more not having you around

i

thinking of you

tonight im thinking of you..wonder will this feeling ever due..
this soul longs for the break of dawn ..just to see that morning dew..
hoping you'll see it too..and together feel that gentle breeze of a brand new day..
this heart yearns for that everlasting tune..
one that will never fade thus calm this frightful soul..
the best never loses its boldness nor forget the effort put into it..
its always been a mystery how one's heart can go oh so weary just thinking of you..

:: floriferous ::
you're always on my mind

It's all about the Climb

today has been full of thinking s well s sleeping..its amazing how tired u can get jus by thinking..=/ s always wen thinking is in d process..songs somehow relate to u easier? the words jus hit u right in d head.. and thank god i found some inspiration to jus keep going on..cos giving up jus wont get me where i want to go or get wat i want..so YAAHHH..dis song is by Miley Cyrus entitled The Climb..

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
there was a time i really felt a dream i had wud come true but like dat voice..ive not reached it n may neva reach it..=(

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
every step i were to take i had to go over in my head for so many times n often end up not taking any action..which totally sucks..i wish i was s tough s my thoughts n s everyone sees me..=/

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
i realise that not everything belongs to us..there will b a time where i know i have to give in n jus hope for d best..

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
it does make my heart ache..but wat can i do but jus hang on n keep a strong face rite?

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
ntg is greater than d fun times we had together..im gonna miss them once u're gone..both of u

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

:: floriferous ::
lost & insecure
wondering where were you

Lost & Insecure

where does one go from here?
how do u know which is the right step?
when will it all be okay?
who knows what to do?
what to do oh what?

sometimes ppl quote famous authors or from books and it looks so simple n easy to do..
but hell no..
to take that step..it can either make or break you..
its d extremes of both sides..
its so hard..
i would say this is d toughest challenge ive ever faced thru in life

not even d hardest maths questions can beat dis..at least dat has an answer..
in life..its all about experience..u either got it or u dont..
its bad wen u dun..cos u wont know until it happens..

do i have wat it takes?
will i b strong enough to face the consequences?
will it b worth it?
can i jus quit?
wat happens den?
why is there so many unanswered questions?

how do i cope wit every feelings im having within?
why is it so hard?

you're the visions when i close my eyes,
you're the thoughts in my congested mind,
you're the reason i sleep at nite,
you're the one i see in my dreams,
you're the one that lights up my day,
you're just the reason

:: floriferous ::
alone in the dark

thinking of you