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It was a GREAT, AWESOME, YAY

DAY

i havent won something in a very long time..
i was the first person on stage to win the Mosh Pitt Pass..
i cant recall d last time i smiled so much in front of my lappie..
i cant recall talking abt so many random stuff in a few hours..
i cant recall d last time i actually played a computer game..
i dun recall multi-tasking (mopping floor,hanging curtains n chattin) n having multi-emotions goin on at d same time
last but not least..hearing the news dat ive been wanting to hear..=)

all these thanks to

UOX promo team for giving me the free pass,
Limkokwing University for inviting the promo team to carry out d event,
Jason ng for making me laugh non stop n drive me nuts,
Mum who cant stand me facing d lappi so much yet make me happy doin hse work in d middle of d nite,
Zhao for telling me the truth

I LOVE YOU ALL..
except jason ng..cos u bully me too much..=p

oh n Kristine!! u reminded me today was 789..=)

About Time...

Hey all..sorry for d long period of me MIA-ing.. Just didnt know wat to write about..alot of things had happened d past month..Some good, some not so good..A few things has changed..Some remains the same..But dun worry, I'VE MOVED ON..

so to begin with..im no longer working in starbucks anymore..due to some unbearable attitudes, i left and currently jus lepaking around..

there were times where the past was sort of reliving its scenes..but somehow, my senses told me to get a grip for it might not turn out d way it seemed..however, it realli shocked me dat i actually felt a glimpse of wat i felt back den..somethings jus dun erase dat easily eh..?? but anyhow, things passed n im learning more from each mistake..

honestly speaking d month of may was like a non stop action month..almost every weekend i had something on..mother's day, mum's bday, bridal gown testing, flower girl dress shopping, etc etc..mostly jus going shopping for various occasions..sadly non for me..=p

apart from that..met a few new frens..courtesy of kristine thong who intro-ed to me..glad to have made new frens..but somehow sadden dat some old frens r jus drifting more apart..it pisses me off at times but wat am i to do if some chooses others over u..ive said dis b4 n here again i shall say, i rather have lesser but greater..pointless to have more but useless..rather be grateful for those ard than tolerate ungratefulness..i dun treat others unkind unless treated likewise..

neways..i cant wait for thursday..i presume it as a HAPPY day..first ill b attending the Hennessy event at Zouk wit Kristine n 2 of our new frens, Yat & Hikaru..secondly, it is one of my good frens' bday..JASON NG..he's turning 24..HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance jace..thirdly, 2 movies will b released on dat day..hope to catch 17 Again if time allows..=)

so thats jus a few updates for now..some pictures will b coming in soon from last weekends event..check out facebook k? c u soon..take care..god bless..

Everytime, some time, a while & now

im so sorry for not keepin my word, but it was jus too intense n i needed to let it out..wat a start of a new month indeed..=/

Everytime I tell myself i'll b fine,
For some time I know how to keep my emotions to myself
For a while, i never felt like my heart so uneasy
But now, it feels s tho every part of me is torn into pieces.

Everytime I see you, i feel glad inside
For some time I never let it show
For a while, i tried to hold those tears
But tonight, that one tear drop was all it took.

Everytime I wish the best for you,
For some time I've given all i can
For a while i feel that ive not done enough
But this time, all i could do was help n nothing more

Everytime I think of you,I see your arms wrapped around
For some time i know ill never get it
For a while i kept faith
But tonight, i wished i had that chance.

However, as long as you're happy then im at ease.

:: flora ::
raw emotions can kill
~i dont wanna go to bed mad at you~

Dead & Gone

s bad s d title sounds..but im jus here to say that ive moved on from d emo state i was in d past few weeks..n ive got myself straight n moving again (tho im lying on my bed most of d time =p)..jus being me seems to b going well..less thinking = less emo..i jus hope i can stay in this happy/positive state for awhile..life's too short to b emo n sad rite?

like i told myself i'd b fine after holy week (holy thursday,good friday,easter)..sometimes it jus takes time alone to think n restructure the head abit..=p im glad dat i din breakdown during any of the masses..cos i kept thinkin dat i'd breakdown,but i guess enuf is enuf? i quote kristine "reached the quota to cry"..lolz..

also gotto thank my advisors..you know who u are..for kicking some sense into me n get me back on my feet..=)

now all i needa to do is have fun n blog up funny things in d future..no more emoness..=D *cross fingers*

:: just FLORA ::
life goes on

Just like a shadow

the day passes so slowly..
head keeps juggling away
everything is goin downhill
just dun have the strength to move on
jus like a dead man walking
or a shadow of someone you do not know
the feeling of jus puttin everythin to a hold
even movies dun make d tears fall anymore
numbness takes over

Cant move on from this state
Heart does no longer feel the pain
Runs to my dreams to have a glimpse of you
In love?
Sacrifice is all i can give
Thank God for you in my life
Offer all i have to give
Pain is jus another feeling
Hate is not an option
Everlasting friendship is all i can have n need
Remember the memories together

:: floriferous ::
ill be that angel
to protect you

Crazy Monday

waking up with a mind full of words to write in a letter is simply dangerous..

driving to a destination not knowing wat to do may cause accident..

over thinking things aso can cause dain-bramage and unnecessary heartache..

misunderstanding/misinterpretation leads to massive breakdown.

u add all of that up,

you get ME on Monday the 6th of April 2009

You're my Everything

Yesterday being Palm Sunday n World Youth Day, the mass was animated by the youths..So during homily, they came up with a skit..the skit was done to Lifehouse's Everything..they did exactly like the Mission Baltimore group..it only too 5 minutes n it touched many ppl including mine dat is..below is d link for the skit done by Mission Baltimore..will let u know once d Kajang version is up..=D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfrbIleVf58

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the truth is, d song not only touched me spiritually but emotionally s well..so obvious rite? if not i wudnt b bloggin abt it..=/ so ya..we all need God in our lives but there's a saying in the Bible that Love is d best among all..n theres a special commandment where it says love one another as i have loved you..means its not wrong to think of God n of someone you love at d same time..neways straight to d point..wen d song reached its climax/gempak/loudest part, tears came to my eyes..not only have i been a BAD catholic lately but aso i knew something/someone was missing..like i said, im bad with words..=/ so here r d lyrics to interprete how i feel..

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
somewhere i wish i cud get to b4 its too late

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
without you, i wouldnt've been able to do wat i did

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
but somehow i still end up falling
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
only you can make my heart turn around like a rollercoaster ride

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
i need someone to direct me where to go n wat to do
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

*this part was where my heart jus stopped*
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
for once i want something different than wat i had in d past
and that makes you everything..everything dat ive dreamt of..

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

:: floriferous ::
In spite of the aches and bruises
It hurts even more not having you around

i

Lost & Insecure

where does one go from here?
how do u know which is the right step?
when will it all be okay?
who knows what to do?
what to do oh what?

sometimes ppl quote famous authors or from books and it looks so simple n easy to do..
but hell no..
to take that step..it can either make or break you..
its d extremes of both sides..
its so hard..
i would say this is d toughest challenge ive ever faced thru in life

not even d hardest maths questions can beat dis..at least dat has an answer..
in life..its all about experience..u either got it or u dont..
its bad wen u dun..cos u wont know until it happens..

do i have wat it takes?
will i b strong enough to face the consequences?
will it b worth it?
can i jus quit?
wat happens den?
why is there so many unanswered questions?

how do i cope wit every feelings im having within?
why is it so hard?

you're the visions when i close my eyes,
you're the thoughts in my congested mind,
you're the reason i sleep at nite,
you're the one i see in my dreams,
you're the one that lights up my day,
you're just the reason

:: floriferous ::
alone in the dark

thinking of you